tripped on reality.

i've always used that as a display name/username/etc name i can think of.

but i've never truly had a good explanation for why i would pick such a thought provoking username such as "tripped on reality". the past 18 years, i've lived in my own little bubble. but yet, i was aware of my surroundings. aware of what was going on around me, aware of what people are capable of doing, aware of the consequences. but i've taken a role in playing naivety, and why? i thought i could roll through life and pretend like nothing is wrong. yet i was so immersed in this lifestyle of pretending i became engulfed in it. yet i knew consequences were on its way. i gained feelings of lost trust, doubtful of everyone, only to recieve what? a broken family..broken friendships..


speaking up was one thing i learned this year. and i'm still learning how to fully control that. the past few months, years even, i've taken the crap i've gotten from people becus i honestly thought things would get better. call me a pushover. so i stayed inside my bubble..took the crap..and waited. i've held everything in for so long, pretending like everything will be better in time. becus thats what everyone tells you. wrong.
things get better when you take the liberty for yourself and stand up for something you believe in. no more pretending, no more letting things blow over. because i knew i was never going to be happy that way. i thought about everyone else's feelings but never thought about my own. i guess this is the part where i tripped on my own reality.